Well, what can I say about the author? I don’t know much about him. I heard that he is a husband of one wife and a guy blessed with a cute daughter. Rumor has been told that he can’t survive a day without grabbing a cup of coffee. He doesn’t bite so please don’t hesitate to send a facebook friend request.
Everyone has a story as they say. Mine is not really unique or special in that case. Just a regular guy who grew up in a Christian church. But I had my share of dramas in life, the ups and downs, which I chose not to divulge of course. Well, some of it maybe.
I’m a trying hard wannabe writer. Little to none fancy words up my sleeves. I have no writing genius. So don’t expect much from me as a writer. A friendly warning to avoid frustration. It’s the content that matters anyway. 😀
But why the heck did I start this website? I did not even imagine myself doing this. I’m no writer at all and far from it. But this random thought just popped up my brain one day. These Jesus stuffs that I’ve enjoyed are worth sharing and unworthy of keeping. My 250 grams fist-size heart ( i googled the number ) could not contain it anymore. The enormous love and grace that was poured out on me (1 Timothy 1:14) was too much to handle. All the posts that you can read here are from the outflowing of a joyful heart when I met Jesus the second time around. The first time by the way was when my Sunday school teacher introduced Him to me as my Savior and Lord. But little did I know that He was more than that.
It was when I was caught hanging in the ropes of my spiritual journey and found myself in the cliff of despair. A moment when I thought I was the worst Christian in the world. The chief sinner there is. Growing up in a Christian community, I was taught that my acceptance and blessings before God are earned and conditioned on my performance, obedience, and moral status. The pastors preached it. The discipleship materials taught it. I viewed my service as one that is from a strong sense of responsibility and guilt rather than opportunity and joy. I have to comply lest I’d be disqualified. But none of these things work now. It seemed that this burden of complying had its toll on me. I am and can’t be worthy of my God anymore. He has turned his back on me. I gave up too.
One day I heard a preacher said, “It is a good thing to come to an end of yourself because it is the beginning of God”. Upon hearing, I felt the gentle hand of Jesus slowly pulling me up from my total drown. He did this to Peter before, I was reminded. I’ve searched the scriptures and asked him to reveal himself to me once again. A plea from desperation. Countless tears had been shed begging for his grace. And indeed, He did. He showed me Paul’s confession to his letter to the Romans: “In me dwelleth no good thing. What a wretched man that I am.” Now I realized that I wasn’t alone. Paul can relate and I’m slowly getting it. Paul in his other epistle said, “I no longer lives but Christ lives in me” ( Galatians 2:20 ). I’ve known this verse before but it gave a different meaning to me now. It is as if God talked to me in my lowest moment pointing me to the one who alone can deliver me from my pitiful state. At this point on, I realized that Christianity is not about me. It was about Christ’s life in and through me.
Things changed. I viewed myself differently. I’ve read the scriptures through a different lens. This time, I did not look for myself — I looked for Jesus. Slowly bombs of truth unraveled before my unprepared heart. It seemed that I met a different Jesus. All the while I thought that He was a grumpy old man waiting for me to stumble and surprisingly unleash his holy wrath of judgment upon me. But He isn’t. He is the Jesus who willingly died for me when I was at my worst ( Romans 5:8 ). The Jesus who was made sin for me so that I become righteous before God ( 2 Corinthians 5:21 ). The Jesus who chose to be rejected on the cross so that I might be accepted before his Holy Father ( Ephesians 1:6 ). And guess what? He is my life right now ( John 10:10 ). I was freed from the burden of performing. He is my righteousness now. Freed from trying to qualify myself as I’m blessed with all blessings in Him ( Ephesians 1:3 ). My heart felt the rush of that blissful freedom, that moment when I experienced Him the second time around. The chain that once bound me vanished. I am now free to love and serve Him ( Galatians 5:1 ). And most of all empowered to serve(1 Corinthians 15:10).
Now, you know where I’m coming from. If what I’ve said is also true of you, then join me on my journey as we discover Christ once more and enjoy the riches of His love, mercy, and grace.
Philippians 3:9-10 And be found in Him, not having my own righteousness from the Law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God on the basis of faith. I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to Him in His death